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Hellos.:D 11 more days to SYF. My heart is pumping vigourously and soon i will be on the stage performing in front of 7 judges. I will be performing Ross Roy(which sucks cause i still havent perfect bar 198 and ^^^) & overture 1(which my clarity is bullshit). Im effing nervous that i will rush like fuck during the day itself. June kept saying that i rush.. I think it's because i listened to WM more than to her. Anyways. Meeting Siti Nurulhuda today. :) i hope i can meet her. T.T band today.. Damn. This few days i felt so lazy to go to school..to even study! I have no mood to. :D Kumanan asked me to research more abt Sister's island but i ddn't really search for it as i don't know where to.  :/ today art will be on the first period (fuck it) , maths i think thn RECESS!!! , eng sci... GO HOO..awww fuck. band. :(

Something is making me eager to go to school..
Is it LOVE?
omg..am i dreaming?
Im in love in this wrong timing.. But who is it..
im not sure. o.o?

Sads. Band was BAD! T.T Ed was like shouting at us ..Angry. =.=LOLS.
 whatever lerhhs.
I dont feel like bloging ya know.. hAIs.
Just tried a quiz in FB.. My first guy that i love will be named with letter M. :D
Now trying a quiz for..- does he really like you..? - RESULT: he likes me as a friend...SAD!
My status is GF.
Chatting with weiling and nab and faruq.
I know his secret:D
:DDD Gossips{love it]

love it when you smile.
hate it when you get angry.
man, ily

hellos.
 School was boring as per usual.
got lit homework and maths(did it). :D havent finish lit yet but gonna do it by today(eventhough tmr there's no lit) & cme proj. shit! i still havent do yet.. Art! OMG! Not yet done!!! History, doing.. :D
Sheesh. today followed dad to buy top up card for me(128 bucks!!!) but thn the phone took out 28 bucks to international balance =.=
When to Nabilahs house and take her shoe..threw my shoes at the side and took 54.
:D not late..(yayy!~) Anyways. PE SUCKS! i failed my 2.4km(19 minutes only) wtf.. it's fucking tiring can? I got blisters and leg cramps right now D:
Damn. Didn't have much appetite to eat during recess.. drank milo and three nuggets(the rest gave it to jaya & nab) and thats all.
For lunch i ate mee rebus(Yummy!) and drank Elder flower tea(Favourite!).lols. Paid mr koh 7 bucks with sof:)..slack at canteen...till 15 30.. went for JrB.(Junior band) till five. it was boring i tell ya!And omg.. im fucking proud of my fucking juniors cos' they can fucking play fucking quite well for juniors.. :DDDD Jiayous!

Is it you or am i falling in love?
i want to get drunk:D
but i cant.

Hellos. im gonna stop writing about ppl and how unperfect they are..
im NOT perfect.
So...
Whatever.. to all the headcoms(new ones) all the best yeah..
(eventhough im unhappy abt it.)
AND EVERYONE.I CANT SMS CAUSE NO CREDIT LER.
:D

im sorry . I dont think there's any misunderstanding.
Im not angry with you nor anyone else.
Im just writing those "angry" words because i cant stand it keeping it inside.
I gotta let it all out.

Many thinks that we're close friends last time.
Are we?
I suppose so..
What happened?
Is it me or is it you?
Or both...?

&$%$#@$%$^!!!!!!!!
Today was such a bad day. Mock SYF at AMKSS. Did pretty well(said Ed). But a lot of mistakes(For me). A lot of things has gone wrong(Totally wrog). First of all it was after we performed. And we're going to sit somewhere. Meg:D was yalking to Bryan when JR grabbed Bryan from his arm and went away all the way like that. Frightening huh? Please lah, no other guys isit? And if you want to talk to him-- please use basic courtesy.
Whatever. Let her be. And this was worst case of all. 11 people were chosen for next batch of leaders.
Tricia, Fyon, Kelly, Dillon, Clarence, Jr, Faruq, KY, Cass Ong, Cass Ho, Anicia! - (Clique and i were utterly disappointed on some people got chosen but all we could do was just complain among ourselves and disagree) This marks the day i lost half my passion for band and feeling kinda upset. D:

Right after band went straight to TPY to eat(super hungry okay!!) Eat with Justine cos' the rest need to go home or got other plans. :D Anyways. Im gonna work hard on SYF. and after that, Im gonna let everything else go and concentrate on me,myself and i. People will think im a bit self-centered or what but i got my own reasons.

Paperworks. Incomplete.

Betrayal acts happened.
Where's the sense of Family-ness.
NUMBER ONE: boot-licking
NUMBER TWO: betrayal
NUMBER THREE: complains
Steps that will happen in band.

I regret. i regret. maybe quiting next year.(or not come for most practice after syf)
If only..they were'nt there. they never exist.
If only.

17 MORE DAYS TO SYF
8 PRACTICES TO SYF
1 more day to school reopen.
PS:
Im sick and tired listening to people stories. It's boring i tell you. Imagine me, telling you everything on what had happened yesterday(boring huh?)

I want a flute right now.
I want this day to be a dream(which won't happen)
I want people whom i hate extinct(trust me. this is crap)
I want my comp to run smoothly(which he is lacking now)
I want a new comp.(acer which cost 999 bucks only...)
I want to go out.
I want to have endless credits in my phone.(Woah! If only)
I want a new phone.(no brand in mind)
I want to skip band all i can(if only there's no such thing as SYF)
I want this march holidays to be longer(for a month at least. For a year at most)
I want a truckloads of candies now(im in fucking bad mood)
I want to eat(effing hungry)
I want a new school bag from Holland road(effing cheap)
I want to go Fundecko at fareast to buy stuffs.
I want loads of money now(to spent!)
I want Subway cookies(omg)
I want to make a new blog.
I want to sleep
I want to skip school on monday( if only i could)
I want to slap Nabilah's face right now.(it makes my day better)
I want to hug someone.(better if the person is a guy..woah.. *steam*)
I want to shout at *their face now.(where are they?)
I want to pee(raining outside so it's friggin cold)
I want to gossip more about people with cliques(it makes me feel much much better)
I want get drunk(if only my religion let me too)
I want chat with someone on msn(nobody's online)
I want a massage(my back's aching)
I want to eat ice-cream.
I want to body slam my sister(feel like it)
I want to go Hong Kong.
I want to watch teevee(but there' s no show)
I want to cry(my eyes are watery)
I want Dad to come home(right na na na)
I want use the comp until I got tired of using it.
I want to bang Bro's electric guitar hard(I've got issues)
I want to eat tons of hershey's choco.(*drooling*)
I want to buy new clothes and shorts at..some shopping centre.(i need em' like asap)
I want a vintage car(to drive through the Hip road of orchard)
I want an endless usage of credit card.
I want shop till i drop.
I want a new form-teacher(sick of Mrs. Ung)
I want a new school shoes(it's ripping off soon)
I want a boyfriend which i treat as a slave.
I want a new result slip which i got all A1s for all sub.
I want a body which don't gain weight(i will be Slim bodoh!)
I want to change my sit in my class(Im sitting beside wei jean and in front of KY)
I want a 42 hour day(so that there's more time and 24 hours is so not enuff)
I want to lead WCB(so that band would be havoc:D)
I want to live my life to the fullest and hack care about the new batch of leaders.(:D)
I want a life full of crazy incidents
I want to throw myself into the Dead Sea(won't drown but float)
I want to end this post by saying all the best to the new leaders. *Salute*

Not envy but pure hatred.

IM MENTALLY EXHAUSTED FROM INTENSIVE TRAINING YESTERDAY.
My body are aching as if we have been doing physical training yesterday. Yesterday, was un-greatful. I think i have improve tiny little bit but still my tone is freaking airy. Juniors cam but din't really talked to them. Lunch: I dint really a proper meal cause' I don't feel like it. Tutoring was great yet tiring. Learnt a lot of stuff.(too lazy to write wth did i learnt) .. Ed. Tan kept asking us to focus. I certainly agree that we don't really focus at times but he should understand that we're all exhausted. Very exhausted. From the faces i see band members come to band to the faces i see the leave. Tired faces. No difference. I disagree when he said that we don't get paid and it's our choice to do well in SYF or not. But WTH. He get paid monthly with a few thousands even if he did nothing for a whole month with us. We gotta workhard like hell as we're the one who play the music and make the quality and he only show us the way.  We just play for stupid O levels points. I know that AMKSS  is having band like almost everyday. I have nothing to say about it. I wonder how they can sustain. They never complain(well, i never heard any). All Whitleyeans do is to complain. Every conductors should realise that WSS are meant to be slackers(it's true.reflect yourself). Why is SYF so importan? It makes us cry(in both way we win or lose). It takes the whole year to prepare or it. You get people to judge on where your band stand(Fucking good, Average,Shit).
I know im being all-so-negative here. But Im tired. Im tired of band. Just so tired of practices. 8 hours of band if im not wrong.
I haven't complete my projects and homework.
It's Thursday & I feel like a zombie.

Bestfriends are meant to understand each other feelings.
Don't get envy towards each other.
We're on the same boat.
We will always be by your side.
No matter what.
Just don't doubt us.
it's all abt trust.

Nabilah is freaking back!!!! Im so excited! But it's very fast.Hmmm.Maybe i don't really realise that she has gone to Perth. :)

just so you know trying to backstab a person
don't do you any good.
Whatever happened to clarence and you?
The day before yesterday was close and yesterday was far apart.
Fight?
Karma?

Thiings just don't work out.

17 more days to SYF.
10 more practices to SYF
2 more days to MOCK SYF
Justine went home early yesterday. Meg came at three.
Go home w meg and weiling.bought waffles before boarding the bus. Weiling went home first. Thn followed by me and meg;D
Great.

If you join them. Would'nt it be that you weren't there for us anymore?. Even you hate them so much. it's you who always tells us that they always flirt. Thn now, you joining? When did you decide this? Yesterday. When You THINK that they're all close to me and ignore you? You're mistaken. We're all trying to talk to you. And the conversation thingy. It was you who ignore us. We're like asking each other what happened to you. All you do is ignore us. isn't it ironic?
i know it's a bit hash but if you treat us as BFFs, shout out your feelings so that we know what to do.

Gonna be busy today(or perhaps lazy).
Adios.:D

P.S: Im going to overpower Shang ROng's tone and don't let him have the tone nicer than mine. I will do what i can to improve. Watch out!

Hellos:D I woke like at 07 34 today.and it's freaking early ya know? Ate my Omelette(My pathetic Breakfast) and Im now listening to Poker-face(acoustic). Pretty nice though. Should hear it asap.(cos' the lyrics is like freaking clear.) Okay, da house is in need of good food please! There's hardly any food here and im starving to death.:( It's pretty boring at home here-alone and doing nothing except for staring at the DELL screen and typing words that has undergone a process from my brain(means that im not talking crap). It bores me to hell i tell you. Im currently blasting the speaker out with the tune of Just Dance. :D I wonder what will i be doing for the rest of the day today. Hmmm.. Perhaps busy doing art project and researching on History project(which i don't know wat the hell are we suppose to do). Alternate days of Practice won't work.The day after band practice we usually feel tired and there's still Home assignments and projects for us to complete durin this short -period of Holidays. We won't have the mood to do our work(school work) after a day of band practice. Would'nt t be Exhausting? Unless our weekends are free, we can. Perhaps. Some more, Saturdaays were snatched away for Mock SYF  at AMK. how great is that? 21 more days to SYF.
Ed tan says: " why do you work so much for your instument?"
My answer: It is because the whole story begun when i put Band as the 2nd choice for my cca. And i Didn't get into my First CCa. So i was forced into band(by the freaking school). My reaction was - WTF? yeah.. wtf. Okay. So, I went to the 2nd practice for band. And watch the seniors play some beautiful-classical music.  It's like a week later then i got my instrument-Flute. KDS picked some choices for me and that is French horn, Flute, Trumpet and percussion. French Horn: I can blow you know!! I know i love it. :D Flute; Yeah. can blow but i don't really know how to blow high notes. Trumpet: The seniors gave up on me as i cant blow a single noise. Lols. Percussion: My rythm-following sucks to the core. It's hard.
So, i got my flute since then.
And i was taught by two seniors-Anicia And June.
For the basic its mostly June. :D Lost my old flute partner-Kimberley. And found a new one WM. We both worked on Chorus of Frogs for My very first concert. It was sucky. And i hate it. Next was Junior Band Fest. It rawks! I love the concert. And this made me fell in love with flute for a short period of time. When the frustration began and the new year came. The love was all gone and it's hatred. I want to do well in flute so that my tone will get better and rounder. Why? So that i can get over and done with playing the same few bars which i often got stuck and play it fluently.

Bad people just change to be good.
Good people just change into someone nastier.
How i wish things get better.

Class outing today. Im not going. Sorry to people who plan it( Kumanan, Corliss ,YR and crystal.) Im too lazy to go. == Tomorrow Juniors will be coming. Haizzz... I don't feel like going tomorrow but then i don't want to miss out all the Important Learning Points. This few days I've been talking about band in my LJ. it's pretty fun. I hope people will just comment on my posts and agree on what i write. :D
My Live journal is currently under constuction. And im going to change the skin:D As Nabilah didnt' ._.

If you're a band member/a victim from my previous posts and strongly disagree on what I've been Posting in my LJ. Please leave a comment. Thank you! If you gonna complain please Leave a comment or email me @ superduperadeen@hotmail.com. :D thank you!

Another promise that i'm gonna make :
Not to love.
"the words that flowed fluently out from your mouth was hurtful yet meaningful"
All i could say to you: "You owe me"

Life's Unfair:
Adin.

Heys. Today have intensive training for band(which im not ready for). Im broke(for money). What will i eat for breakfast later? Hmmm. (trying to think but brain is still asleep)
Yesterday was fun(well, kinda). Chatted with a whole lots of people in a conversation @ msn.Corliss, Weiling & me started it if i not wrong. Many people leave the conversation and left me, Weiling, corliss, clarence,sean, eloysius and kok yang(which he didnt even say anything and went offline). Yeah. Its freaking humourous. Talked to guy from junyuan sec(somewhere in tampines) and talked about exam..:S pretty weird but whatever..Err..*trying very hard to think of something to post about yesterday*... Oh. Dad bought me tpo-up card cost 10 bucks.(its enough i think)..I know im gonna finish the credit like in a 3 days time. But Im going to try and control. (Wish me luck)

Im going to be freaking tired today. Perhaps im going to skip lunch and go for something light. Im eyeing on my weighing scale now. I think i grew taller. Hmmm.It seems like when i walked with my friends and surprisingly Im like taller then them(for shorter friends) and it seems like Im going to be the same height as them(For the taller friends).
I think:
Just another day, you talked. Not to me but her. Conversation has gone dry. I've been cracking my brains of what to talk about but all you do is wait. Im fed-up and im gonna let you decide. Not going to talk or even motion to you anything. -It's not fair and its really not okay. You'r suppose to care but all you do is take.- -It's not fair and i think you're really mean. You're suppose to care but u never really scream- Such a shame. I've got other friends but you're the outstanding one. I've got other things to do but you're the first. This friendship is rotting. Im going to let it be.

Earlier was about a guy. Anyways.. Im slightly over it after letting it out.
Another day..
Another Lie..
Another flow of memories..
Another glimpse of jealousy.
Another tiny bit of despair.

Band was quite crazy. The whole flute section Has a lose screw somewhere in the brain right after sectionals with Marcus. He taught us double tonguing -- TUKU. Lols. We(whole flute section) kept saying the word over and over again and we named ourself the TUKU family. Anicia is the TUKU 1 June is TUKU 2(Tukutu(triple tongue)) Me TUKU 3 WM TUKU 4 . Marcus Big TUKU. lols. its pretty funny when it happened..well now, i guess people will find it lame. Humour don't last long if you retell to a person. Whatever lah.. Meg:D didnt come. Too lazy(not take care of her grandma). LOLS. some people were busy chasing after the boys during lunch.*roll eyes*
Moving on.. Something happened. Hmmm...something nice. ( other than KY and corlis sitting next to each other during Fall-In)... Whatever it is. It's great.
!!!!

Anyways.. I gotta update my Link. :D Ciaos

Hellos:D Went out for band at around 8 plus. Megan maybe not going band but came ten minutes before band end.  How great! Err. Oh ate my breakfast at Macs. Thn went to school met J and W. Go band.Ed tan was in one of his mood swings. Kept shouting at us. Whatever lahh.  There's a bee stuck at Anicia's hair which she didnt bother tying.HAHAHAHAS. its funny i tell you. Lols. Anicia's was paranoid and kept looking around for bees. Lols.
Went to Xinmin Sec at hougang. Band Demo. Marcus was there.zzz...  Okay. To summaries everything its freaking boring and tiring. Walter kept scolding us as if we make so much noise. WTF. the rest were like talking much more louder sia. Ass. He kept acting as if he was one of the SL there. Doesnt mean he is older he can treat us like that and scold us at such a small matter.
ARGHHHH!!!
okay, went to take a cab on to TPY central t eat at Fork&spoon with meg, justine an corliss...Its zelicious! Okay we took some Vid of Meg eating and its humorous. Whatever it is. PKY sms-ed corliss .Hahahas. made fun of her. LOl. After eating went to Courts and window shopping. Pathetic i know. we all have nothing except for cold coins in our wallet. Went to sit at subway and "lepak" (said meg). Saw Marcus, Veron and Cass ong. Lols. we chat about our FRENEMIES and hair. Talking about hair made Justine cut her fringe into bangs and she looks adorable.  lols.We all went home at around 7 pm plus... Got home and everyone else was home first.
Eat Maggie and went straight to Phone to see if anyone message. yuups. Justine and bryan. lols.
Haisss. Went to use the comp. Facebook. chatting. (currently chatting w Nabilah) and Blogging:D